What I’ve Learned From Four Hospitalizations

Hospitalizations aren't always typical when you're mentally ill as not everyone's illness is the same, but it is common. According to the Healthcare Cost and Utilization Project briefing, in 2012, there were 8.6 million hospital stays that involved at least some type of mental illness. 1.8 million stays, or about 6.7 percent of that population, …

My Psychiatrist Dumped Me. What’s Next?

My psychiatrist dumped me. Not that it wasn't for good reasons. I had missed too many appointments and it went against their policy. I get it. I had to be dropped. It doesn't mean that it doesn't suck though. I loved my psychiatrist. We had an amazing fit and we really connected. She truly cared …

My First Three Months As A First-Time Mom

Three months ago on the 8th, I had my beautiful little girl, Vera. She has been my entire world since she came onto this Earth. While she has been a huge blessing in my life, it has also been a major transformation for me and my husband, both being first-time parents. The only time we …

March 2019 Goals

2019 is really flying by, isn't it? I can't believe it's already March. I also can't believe that in a short two months, my daughter will be here and I will be frantically trying to figure out what the hell I am doing. Here's an obligatory March 2019 goals post as I really want to …

Baby Shower Registry Must-Haves

* Disclosure: This post contains affiliate links. If you click on the link and make a purchase, I may receive a commission at no cost to you. 🙂 All my opinions are my own. Excitement, giddiness, and straight-up terror may be a few of the things you're feeling as you plan your baby shower. This. …

Pregnancy and Mental Health: The Ugly Truth

** NOTE: This post is not meant to scare or deter you from having kids or trying to have children. I am Bipolar I and still chose to get pregnant 🙂 It's very possible and very doable, especially if you have a great team of doctors. These are just some ugly issues I've seen/dealt with …

Surviving the first trimester when you have anxiety and depression

Congratulations! You have just found out that you are going to be a new mom. Not only does this mean bringing a beautiful and bouncy baby into this world, but it also means that the next nine months will be a hormonal and emotional roller coaster. Being pregnant and becoming a mom when you have …

I lost a friend after my suicide attempt

"I just can't be friends with you anymore." This is what my childhood best friend said to me after my suicide attempt. Between all the feelings I was experiencing from this attempt, having my best friend basically shun me, hurt. At the time, I didn't understand what I had done wrong. Why wasn't she supportive? …

It’s been 5 years since my friend committed suicide: An open letter

You never really think that the time moves that quickly after a traumatic event in your life. I got a call that my beloved coworker and friend had died. I couldn't believe it- he was young and had just had a baby who was less than a year old. I didn't really comprehend how he …

September Goals

Even though we're a couple days in September, I figured I'd push out this post to chat about my September goals. I've been struggling with my depression and anxiety, only made worse by my raging pregnancy hormones. I truly need to get my shit together, pardon my language, and I feel like blogging is part …